Overwhelmed

The tears well in my mind
but defiantly refuse
to release themselves
irritating my eyes
screaming at them
to ache
burn in agony
mirroring the damage
in my heart

fearing that which can't be explained
or anticipated- -
the fading smile
on my son's face
the most difficult decision,
an unwanted letter
coming at wartime

closing my eyes
to hide from the shame
of acceptance
the sheet of night blanketing
my reality.