August 3, 2008

Disconnected digressions
meander mindlessly
through the quiet night
disrupting sleep
challenging calm

sleep is lingering
yet my heart races
my thoughts migrant
alive
awakened by possibility

the world around me
folding under
gurgling bubbles
of possibility linger
marriage indigestion
poisoned by the venom
of monogamy

crazed wants
balance of hope
torn between
desire and obligation
alone to choose
everything to lose
everything to lose

home as defined
by such
titles and labels
that can never define
but do

the self long ago
discovered
uncovered and embraced
after hiding for so long
in the fear of judgement

whisked back away
solitary
confined to the passion
embraced only
in quiet meditation
unsatisfied
by choices
that were never mine to make

troubled now
by the will
of others
responsibility
questioning only
to whom my loyalty
must lay
outward
or justice
for what feels right
in my soul

irreconcilable damage
could be done
if the truther uttered
my deepest demands
unable to be fulfilled
by current situation

change or be changed
grow or morph
embrace
which is outside
closing eyes
breathing inward
seeking answers
running out
of excuses...